Sunday, February 14, 2010

Why it's hard...

to be sane.

The semester is almost half over and already I'm thinking, "How am I going to make it?" Trying to balance 17 credits, a leadership position, and a calling in my church can be downright hard. I have never been so worn out. But I've also never felt so productive. I just wish there was an easier way to do all the things I want and need to do. I wish I had more time to spend with people instead of always being in a hurry, or trying to meet a deadline, or doing something important. So, just to give you a taste of my life, here is the schedule of a typical Wednesday (and every other day is very similar, if not worse, than my Wednesdays)

7:30 Wake up, get ready, eat breakfast.
8:30-3:30 Go to class, office hours, and tutoring at the Junior High.
(12:30-ish Take an hour to eat, study scriptures, finish some homework.)
4:00 Meetings
6:00 More Meetings
8:00 Study, get off my feet, dinner, visit girls from church.
10:00 Waterpolo games!
11:00 Shower, go to sleep.

I feel like I am constantly in a hurry. I hardly have a chance to slow down and breathe. I feel like I am always trying to catch up with my life. I need to find a way to be more in control. I keep telling myself only a few more months before the Summer...but that just seems so far away. I mean, I love the experiences I have and the things I learn about myself, but when does a girl catch a break? What do I do when I can't do much of anything to change the fact that I love everything I'm doing? I persevere.


5 comments:

Erica said...

One day at a time. That's all I can say. Take advantage of your down-time. Sleep. Don't get too tired. The more tired you feel, the more stressed life will feel. Keep going. You're so CLOSE!! Spring break is right around the corner.

Cheri said...

Reading this blog made me realize I could be busier. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed with being an editor at the paper. But, I guess we are all busy these days. Just remember to take some time for YOU amongst serving others. Sometimes you need to take a minute and just laugh, listen to good music, and relax. :D

[ kamilla kaye ] said...

Thanks for the advice Erica. I do need my sleep :) And Cheri, be careful, because there is such thing as too much. You are probably just as busy as I am with that newspaper, if not more busy! Growing up makes me miss those good ol' junior high and high school times we had! Thanks again, you two! I miss you both!

Anonymous said...

You got it. As long as you are using every second the exact way you want too, you'll be fine. Just remmember when you put the Lord first, he makes time for everything that matters, and everything else will fall away. Just make sure you not to busy for the Lord :) and whatever you do... don't brake your leg! haha

Whit and Curtis said...

I <3 You:)